Fixing The Coward's Way Out

Tired at the end of the day, exhausted beyond words now, devestated once I escape the flourescent lights and the evening comes down. Too many tyhings to do and not enough time to do them. I don't know how everybody else seems to cope so effortlessly, seamlessly, their lives stitched together in one seemly hole.

Irritable, restless and discontent, that was the default position, and nothing was ever going to change that. I couldn't be certain where it was all coming from. Staking out the rich always made us unpopular in the surrounding neighbourhoods; affronted that we should encroach on their moneyed certainties, their expensive peace, their luxurious houses so large you could almost call them compounds.

I ached with uncertainty, but not with love, and it showed. This is a tree just up from my house at Tambar Springs. I've been working enough overtime to get away for a couple of days. The endless pressure was wiping out my integrity; I just wanted to survive till knock-off; that was all. The pain was creeping through my body, twists and turns; I just wanted to reverse the clock, grow younger by the day, and a simple thing like nature stood in my way. We're a short-lived species I would say; and how true that is, as the weeks flee before us, rippling over the interchanges.

THE BIGGER STORY:

The Age:

Rowe's Todays at Nine are over

Paul Heinrichs

May 6, 2007

Jessica Rowe.

PRESENTER Jessica Rowe will not return to Channel Nine's Today show or the network.
Nine yesterday worked out a deal in which Rowe is believed to have been paid out, following months of cat-and-mouse games with network executives.
The star had been reluctant to return to the program after the birth of her first child. Executives also realised that Rowe's appointment to the breakfast show last year has been a failure.
She joined Nine at the start of 2006 following a bitter legal dispute with her former employer, Network Ten. The Today program has failed to rate against Seven's Sunrise, whose comperes, Melissa Doyle and David Koch, are nominated for Logies tonight.